my love belong too who

"I DIDN’T WANT TO HURT YOU MORE SO I HAD TO MAKE YOU LEAVE ME. I TRIED TO CHANGE YOUR HEART; I ACTED LIKE A JERK SO YOU COULD HATE ME." 

The thing is, I am grateful that I seem to have friends and family who want to attend my convo. I appreciate it so much, but at the same time, I don't want them to be wasting time, waiting there, when I know that the whole thing is gonna take a long time. For what? My five seconds of fame. It's not even that gloat-worthy, honestly, that five-second fame. Seeing as so many people are gonna be before and after me that I probably can't even flash a eye-blinding smile at the camera before they oh-so-politely-rude usher me away. Not to mention that I can only bring in two guests, so there will only be two of my family members who will be there to witness my five seconds of fame.